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The other teen is named Al. If you’re wondering what I am talking about, please refer to this post.
There was this time when CJ was not texting me. I don’t know if he’s just so busy (during summer vacation?) or if he just didn’t feel like texting me. This was during the election week. And while CJ wouldn’t text me, Al was so giving me this attention I needed, in person and via text.
On the election day itself, I survived falling in line for 5 hours at the precinct because Al kept me company (via text) all throughout.
That’s when Al and I started becoming close. He’d always go to the mall with me, or dine out with me whenever I didn’t feel like eating at home. It was via text last May 16, before going to bed, when I asked him if he had already experienced being courted by members of the third sex. He said there was a lot of them during his high school days, but he said he never entertained their motives and just kept them as friends.
When he said that, I jokingly told him I think I would try courting him. He just laughed, and said I should court him when he doesn’t have a girlfriend anymore. His reaction, though, didn’t really tell me to stay away, so I gathered it was okay.
We continued to text normally after that, when I thought he’d be a little wary after knowing I had other intentions. Two nights after, I was telling him I hate waiting, and that I really don’t know how to court. I was asking him if we could be officially on already. He was laughing and said he’d think about it.
Wednesday, I was a little persuasive already. He was out that day with his mom, and I was texting him like, “So we’re on now?”
He was pleading (yes with a please) if he could just think about it for a while. He loves his girlfriend and he doesn’t want to put the relationship at risk. I told him no one would know; that it would just be our secret. But he really wanted to think about it first. I didn’t push my luck any further. And laid off the topic of relationship for a while.
He dropped by my house last Sunday, with a common friend, to hang out. Sitting beside me, I couldn’t help but pinch or grab at his arm once in a while. His skin was so warm when our arms would touch. And he was acting a little trying hard to be cute. LoL!
Then Monday (yesterday), I thought about it and realized I had been courting him for 8 days already. I texted him, saying that it would be the last day I’d wait; that if he still couldn’t decide on that day, then I’d stop and we’d be just friends forever. I was crossing my fingers at that time, though, that everything would turn out in my favor.
He said okay, and promised to text me of his decision last night. But before the night came, he again dropped by with the same friend from the previous day. He was so cute in green shirt and cut-off jeans, and looked so young with a PSP dangling from a lace around his neck. He hang out for like 2 hours, Facebook-ing with his PSP and kidding around at the same time.
I couldn’t ask him in person about the decision he’d make that coming night. I was kinda afraid. But the fact that he went to my house before the decision time came was a good sign.
I waited until almost 10 pm before finally giving in the urge to text him, reminding him that it’s already late. He made me wait for a few, saying he’s still looking for something. A sign? Ohgawd. But then he texted at 10:06 pm, telling me of his decision that he wanted to try to have a relationship with me. He made me promise, though, that no one should know. He’s really afraid that his girlfriend would know.
It’s okay, I don’t have plans of telling anyone myself. I’ve always been gay, but having brought up this way makes me feel more shame than pride in bragging about my homosexual relationships.
I was so happy when I received that text. My face was painted with a smile even when I woke up this morning. And I didn’t even sleep soundly at all. I woke up so many times during the night and all I wanted to do was think of him.
And then he had this job orientation the whole day today. And he’s gonna start work tomorrow. Gah! I haven’t seen him since we’ve been officially on. I’m anticipating the moment. I actually don’t know how I would behave or how he would behave around me now that we’re on. LoL!
Actually, I was also thinking if I should say “I love you” last night or if I should just wait for him to say it first. He’s so young and this is his first gay romance I didn’t want him to feel awkward. But luckily, he said it first during the goodnight text.
I’m so young all over again. There’s actually a smile on my face while typing this.
PS
If I wrote this on the day I wrote the CJ entry, the tone would have been so different cuz Al and I still weren’t on then. Likewise, if I wrote the CJ entry when Al and I were already on, it would also have been so different.
